"I'm staring at my dream in the face,
Seems so real I could touch it,
But what if I break it?
I sit and stare,
waiting and watching,
willing myself to run with it.
But then again...
what if it breaks?
There will be another tomorrow."
I am plotting out my life in black and white these days - pun intended. There has been a constant endeavor to chart my progress over the years, whether it in terms of financial improvement or career advancement. These days it also involves emotional stability. So how far have I come since the last time I looked closely at my life.
As far as work is concerned, I've come a long way - my professional has gone from being a journalist, to an editor, to an MA student to a PR exec. Within PR I have moved industries as well. As far as residing in one place goes, I have managed to successfully complete two years of living in the UK. (That's the longest I have stayed in one country in the past few years)
My lovely new home provides me with the stability I need. I've now even met someone I could see myself wanting to spend most of my time with!!!
But ..then comes the big fat BUT... something that has been a dream for the longest time, has come and presented itself in front of me. In order to fulfill it, I must give up everything I have built here in the UK.
A year ago, it would have been extremely easy to just up and leave. In fact, I couldn't wait to get out of a city I considered to be soul-less. London to me, back then, was the most depressing city of all the depressing places I have lived in. No! actually that's wrong. Swansea has been the most depressing place I have ever lived in. The constant rain and gloom coupled with my brilliant experiences there - made it a recipe for emotional disaster...Bleh
Anyway, these days I wake up to pangs of anxiety when I think about the coming few months. If I manage to make this dream a reality... My time will be spent far away from my amazing friends and life in London. And this one person I have come to adore
More rants after I know what destiny has in store (don't I sound cryptic now!!!).....
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